bits&pieces.

wonders.

2009-11-07T14:42:58Z

TIRED.

of everything, every single little thing.
i really felt that i had enough, broke down.

F.

2009-10-21T14:41:03Z

NEW SEMESTER HAS STARTED, one last final semester :D
back to school seeing all those familiar faces was pure awesome!
and freehand drawing sounds cool.
hopefully the teacher figures out that i am drawing some building instead of rectangular blocks.
hahaha, we shall see how then. *everyone please pray hard for fer*
and now walking along concourse has different purpose for me, *hint hint mel*
haha, but seriously i am such a timid soul to even look at _
so contradicting, a part of me is like I WANT TO SEE _.
but another part of me is like OMG, BETTER DON'T SEE _, OR ELSE I WILL BLUSH LIKE MAD!!
AND I BLOODY HELL DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT!!!!!!
i guess i need to pluck out tons tons tons tons of courage to ask for number, oh gosh!!

for that moment, my heart was beating damn fast.
i use to think that she's just another one, but damn it.
she's different, i'm serious for ONCE.

she's a pathetic.

2009-10-12T13:23:47Z

I AM GOING TO CURSE AND SWEAR PUBLIC-LY, AND YOU ARE NO FEAR TO ME.
AND I AM ABSOLUTELY NOT AFRAID THAT YOU ARE READING THIS.
the next time you open your fucking mouth and talked things behind my back,
think again because you seriously have to know that you are messing up with the wrong person.
for godness sake, know who you are dealing with.
you have your reasons to don't like me, i always joke with sarcasm..if you can't take it then too bad.
i can only say you are such a narrow-minded person, it's like "OHHH, I DIDN'T KNOW YOU CAN'T TAKE JOKES"
but come on..at least have the courage to come and talk things out with me face to face.
don't sneak behind my back and start all your effing nonsense thing and the next moment act as if things are normal.
you don't want me to be in the boat then tell me right in my face, no need to tell others how miserable and sad it is for you to row when i am there..you want your paddle and lifevest back?! i know you wouldn't want, beacuse you just need me to fill up the seats and fill up the number..and this is why i understand why i SIT at the back, you want me to feel neglect or what?!
but i am sorry that even though i am at the back, i get attention too..you want to play this kind of underhand thing,
BRING IT ON..because i can get bitchy too.
just take a look at your pathetic little brain, i wonder what it contains.
your thinking and your logic is totally the WORLD'S MOST NONSENSICAL THING ON EARTH.
and thanks for making me feeling like i am a worthless and unwanted THING, you succeeded.
and i didn't know my injury is just a nothing to you, i see that's your potential.
and i was really amazed how i could break down with those words coming out from your mouth, i was hurt.
if you insist that you are damn perfect and flawless, GO AHEAD AND "IT'S ALL IN YOUR MIND".
one more thing, trying to act innocent won't buy you more sympathy..
you got me more pissed when i found out how controlling you are, how dare you treat her as if she's an asset of yours.
YOU DON'T OWN HER, YOU HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHTS TO DO THAT TO HER..AND I WON'T LET YOU AFFECT HER.
she don't need you to tell her what to do and who to mix around with, get a life man.
and try to think mature abit maybe that will make you a better person, because according to your thinking..being too close to a friend is like a DEATH SENTENCE AND SERIOUS OFFENCE, totally AMAZING!
i am not sorry at all for those vulgarities because you owned those.
last thing: BACK OFF.

they were my motivation in training and my stay in the team,
you are a pushing effect for me to leave.
but THEY OVERWHELMED YOU, awww too bad you can't get my ass out of the team.

hoping for that one day.

2009-10-10T18:46:40Z

always be your pillar of support,
stands by you whenever and wherever,
shares all your joys and sorrows,
be the one who catch you when you fall,
and you might be an impossible to me.

damn pissed!

2009-10-05T16:46:15Z

OKAY EVERYBODY, no more "HAPPY VESAK DAY!" :D
anyway 4th oct was out at marina square to celebrate sav and cal's burstdayyy!
andddddd it's been a longgggg time since we went singing together!
so KBOX was awesome (HAHAHA!)..spamming LADY GAGA & FIRE BURNING!!
chandra was totally turn off by lady gaga's MV (no offence to those GAGA's FAN-SI)
and 5th oct was out with the clique for photoshoot..totally had fun.
hopefully ming is happy with the surprise we planned (:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ANG MING FANG!!

great day with the great people :D

the BIGGEST mistake in my life is to make that choice.
since being in a same boat but making another miserable and sad.
i must as well be a spectator and let you be peaceful,
and i seriously welcome THRASH TALK, because if you are that unhappy then say that to my face.
bring it on.

unstable phase.

2009-05-09T14:12:31Z

HAPPY VESAK DAY EVERYONE!!
had training in the morning, now there are freshies with us.
i don't know why, but i am very very happy to train with freshies around.
because they are a form of motivation to the team.
after training, went tampines food court to makan
and when we were about to go home, we randomly suggest to watch movie.
so in the end went to catch THE RAMEN GIRL.
hmm, thought it will be a nice movie but abit disappointing.
end around 7plus, so on my way home.
the bus ride was definitely an annoying one.
i was sitting down holding my paddle, then there is this uncle sitting opposite me.
i swear he was staring at me throughout my whole bus ride.
first he looked at my paddle then next moment he was looking at me from head to toe non-stop.
it's like i feel like shouting:
"HELLO UNCLE, IT'S JUST A PADDLE OKAY...I AM NOT NOT NOT HOLDING A GUN OR WHATEVER,AND YES I AM NOT A TERRORIST, DEFINITELY NOT AN ALIEN..SO PLEASE STOP STARING AT ME!!!!!!!!"
seriously if you are curious or what, a few glare would be enough..i wouldn't take it to heart since we are used to it,
but staring throughout the bus ride is abit way too rude.
so anyway tomorrow is MOTHER'S DAY(:
will be out for a meal after training, woohoo!!

it's just another phase of my life,
once is enough.

WTF?!

2009-05-02T15:06:25Z

IF TIME CAN BE REWIND, I REALLY REALLY WISHED THAT I DIDN'T
READ THAT CONVERSATION.
seriously wtf, what's the problem with you.
maybe blame me for not knowing how to handle such a person like you.
and i'm really glad that i had already kept a distance from you,
but still you are such a FUCKER!

the happenings.

2009-04-26T05:19:49Z

13 MORE WEEKS OF SIP TO GO,
anyway thanks to all for dropping by BISTRO, appreciated(:
TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC CREATE A NEW GUINNESS WORLD RECORD.
with the most people participating the event, the longest endurance human wheelbarrow and and and
THE LONGEST HUMAN WHEELBARROW CHAIN,
GOOD JOB TO ALL THE 74 PEOPLE.
although we failed the third try with more people added, but the fact is we still create a new record:D
saturday after training, went to meet up with click 12.
not everyone turn up but it's good to see them after such a long time.
went to watch 17 again, laughing damn loud in the cinema.
after that we had exchanging of interesting SIP ~~gossips/bitching~~..OOPS.
anyway recruitment is over, now awaiting to start training with the new batch.
wednesday we shall see how it goes, looking forward.

running long distance till collapse,
does it matters to you?
i doubt so.

BISTRO WALK CAFE!

2009-04-09T13:53:11Z

ONE WEEK OF SIP DOWN!!

WOOHOOOOO:D
anyway can't believe that everyday i actually reported for work on time.
it's like FER IS NEVER PUNCTUAL FOR MORNING LECTURES,
but now have to clock in 8.30am, hahaha it's ironic.
had been modifying drink recipes for the whole week,
so that new drinks can be put up on the new menu.
TO MAKE IT SOUNDS NICE, OUR JOB IS MENU PLANNING AND KITCHEN WORK.
but to be exact WE ARE SAI KANG WARRIOR,
DISHWASH,CLEAN-UP,BLEND, WIPE,SWEEP, MOP,SANITIZE,COOK,SERVE...
everything we also BAO GA LIAO!!
next week BISTRO WALK CAFE starting business already,
definitely more busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
SIP-FOOD SAFETY PROJECT-APFS, good game fer.

hard to predict, hard to capture, hard to understand, hard to own.

GOODBYE MEL & DE.

2009-03-30T10:46:08Z

I HAD TO SAY THAT TRAININGS WERE "OMG!"
one word to describe the sprinting sets: KILLER.
and the sun was scorching hot for the past two days.
that's why i am as RED as a LOBSTER!!
anyway sunday after training, went down to airport to send mel & de off.
quite an amount of people were there to send them off,
as if they were going for years, hahahaha.

haha, cannot even see our faces clearly.
some of them weren't there, or else it will be better.
anyway they will be back in june for two weeks break.
then we can have our BIG GATHERING, WOOHOOO!!

WE WILL MISS BOTH OF YOU.
after mel & de went in, everyone went on separate ways.
we went T3 to makan popeyes chicken and biscuits.
walked around and left.
lastly; goodbye HOLIDAYS, hello to SIP.

corrupted, sometimes i can't take it.
having it doesn't mean that you're always right.

it's out!

2009-03-11T11:42:09Z

FER IS SICK):
anyway results are out, I PASSED EVERYTHINGGGG!!!
hahaha, but it's filled with Cs and Ds.
I AM EASILY CONTENTED, YES I DO.
results aside, missed training on tuesday because i was sick.
i guessed with my current condition, thursday i'm going to miss too.
DAMNN IT!! *frown*
and hopefully this holiday, we can spend more time with those going OSIP.
or else must wait for monthss to see them again.

knowing that it's impossible,
but why carry on?

the week.

2009-03-02T15:51:06Z

GYM TRAINING TOMORROW!!
the weights will be waving to me, and i will be staring at it.
have been facebook-ing for dayssss & nightsssss,
especially the GEO CHALLENGE, testing me on geography.
TOTALLY, GEOGRAPHY IS NOT MY THINGG LAHHHH.
haha, if ms koh have a facebook..she will be the top scorer!!
ohhh, anyway HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA ONG LI RONG.

i'm tired, of everything.

training resume.

2009-03-01T06:56:44Z

TRAINING RESUMED YESTERDAY!!
it was great to see everyone again after such a long perid of time.
stopped training for two weeks, and fitness deproved like mad.
running was damn tiring for me, rowing was damn struggling for me.
okay for this week, my middle name will be MGY (ONLY FOR THIS WEEK!!!)
hahaha, which means tmr i'm not..because it's a brand new week!
anyway i am aching everywhere, especially those conditioning exercises.
training intensity pumping up, let's pull through together!!
anyway HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JIAOSTER NGIENG & HAPPY TWO FRIEND!!
and to BRF, my muffin is definitely rotting at your house already.
haha i will go and redeem it soon.

SIDE NOTE: CONGRATS TO THOSE WHO WERE SELECTED FOR THE OSIP!
and good luck to michelle & eveleen, have fun speaking in mandarin(:

REVIVAL!!!

2009-03-01T06:37:39Z

HELLOOOOOOOO!!!
yes i know, you will be thinking "STUPID FER, FINALLY DECIDED TO POST"
hahaha, okay so this week we've ended our semester exams.
and right on the day which is wednesday, it was clubbing with click 12.
ST. JAMES POWER STATION TO CELEBRATE MR TIMOTHY CHUA YONG CONG'S BIRTHDAY!
it was a nice experience, the drinks were wooooolala.

so when we reached the place, the place wasn't really hype up.
and we were waiting for seats, luckily we found a place to settle down.

haha, la-me described me as the "tomato" among the "potatoes"
it's good blood circulation, hahaha not drunk okay.

hahaha, we are trying to be like our pet in pet society.

look at these two retards,
that explains why they are going OSIP together.
totally can imagine how they will entertain themselves when they are bored

LOOK AT THE BIRTHDAY BOY AT THE BACK!
it's like "OHHHHHH"

i think whoever took this picture don't like "HAZZ IN" and me
look at the poor de yuan!!

lastly congrats to LIM DE YUAN & MELISSA ONG LI RONG!
we MIGHT miss you girlssssss, not 100% confirm okay.
take care of each other ah.

OX-PISCIOUS.

2009-01-29T19:41:29Z

ON THE EVE'S EVE WAS OUT WITH USUALS!
met up with yol earlier to do some last minute shopping.
and i was damn fast and furious, got all my stuff within 1 hour plus.
after that went to meet others, and we set off to katong to have dinner & yusheng(:
full like mad, then over to tampines as they wanted to watch movie.
chrys and i made a move first while others enjoy the movie.
recently have been eating non stop, haha luckily training resume already.
or else i can't imagine the size keep growing horizontally.
and this year's new year was really a good start, i really enjoyed & love it.
anyway SUNDAY IS MASS BAI-NIAN WITH CLICK 12, it's going to be O.M.G.
i can't wait for that day to come, SO FUN!

someday,i'll make you mine.

watch your back.

2009-01-24T15:54:59Z

YOU SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE DEALING WITH!

AND SAD TO SAY, YOU REALLY MESSED UP WITH THE WRONG PEOPLE.
WE DON'T NEED YOU TO LIKE US OR WHATEVER.
BRING IT ON.

by one day few track running can loose 'KG's

if this logic works,
i think i have negative weight already.
are you dumb or dumb?
face naturally buang then buang,

you can't do anything to make it NOT BUANG.
it's in you & please it's time to learn.

1ST JAN 2009!

2009-01-01T06:19:46Z

EVERYTHING WAS NICE BECAUSE THERE WAS USUALS!
early in the morning, went to school for two hours lesson.
after that went to meet yingz & yol at business.
while waiting for some to finish their project or end lesson,
jing and haoyan(LKB..HAHAHA) came over to TP.
went to bizpark kill time, awhile later sammy & sam came.
so we waited for eugene to end his lesson,
in the end he went home first, evening then joined us again.
yingz went to do project and others proceed to tampines swensen's(PART 1!!).
used up the vouchers of mine, because 31/12/08 is the last valid day.
HAHAHA, 6 PEOPLE SHARE TWO ICECREAM!!
then blah blah blah, we head down to novena.
7 of us walked around at velocity then to our makan place,
ZHEN FA HUO HAI XIAN, we are good in hiding food & making use of the utility there.
HAHAHA, it's better not to reveal what we did.
anyway, siwei & eugene joined us later..
9 of us eat like there's no tomorrow, damnnnnn full.
so we head down to pasir ris,
and then guess where we went next,
"WE ARE SO GOING TO SWENSEN'S", haha so we went swensen's again(PART 2!!!).
used up my last voucher, we ate the same ice cream again,
but this time is 9 PEOPLE SHARE TWO ICE CREAM.
and we started to play zhong ji mi ma with SALT WATER!!
which got us all bloated, ohh and for the whole day
we visited the toilet numerous times.
after that we head down to downtown east,
wanted to go into the d'marquee, but damn lots of people.
so we went E! HUB'S ROOFTOP.
countdown & shared resolutions, took picture and off we went.
that's not the end, so sam went off.
the other 8 of us went to watch bedtime stories.
OMG, IT'S REALLY BEDTIME STORIES FOR ME.
I WAS SLEEPING THROUGHOUT ALMOST THE WHOLE MOVIE!
because it's so tired, and we are sitting at the first row!
the movie end around 3.30am, all of us cannot tahan.
shared cab home, reached home 4am.
slept at 5am, and here i am posting up a wordy first post of the year.
HAHAHA, HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE!

just like a family,
irreplaceble.

it's showtime!

2008-12-29T13:12:34Z

UPDATES ON CHRISTMAS EVE:
was well-spent at de's house(:
gift exchange was EGG-CITING!!!

the oh-so-damn-nice LOGCAKE!!!
really very very nice, everyone scrapping for it like mad.

nine, but fun.
and also the naruto game we played.
for that moment all of us like SPASM.
pressed the controller like crazy,
anyhow press, got button PRESS!!!!
anyway, new year bbq might be with them again.
NEXT, UPDATES ON REGATTA.
finally got all the photos for regatta.
actually got alot of photos, but i think post a few can already.
cause some are photos of us rowing during the race.
RIVER REGATTA 2008!

boat 4! boat 4! one stroke back!

I SO DAMN LIKE THIS PHOTO, COOL!!!

ready to row up to starting line,
listen to drummer and coxswain!

it looks so nice as a photo,
but as we were rowing up to the starting line,
it gets harder to breathe & let out a smile, because i feel the tension.

the best moments,
just when we started to have a little acknowledge,
but at the same moment, we have started to go on separate ways.
it don't stay long, but it will be well kept in heart.

and from every race,
we experience EVERY MILLISECONDS MATTER!

LASTLY, MOST IMPORTANTLY.
POWER,ENDURANCE,RESISTANCE.
let's build it up NOW!!

it's so fake.

2008-12-25T09:18:38Z

sometimes i really wished that i didn't know the truth.
i guessed you've been badmouthing about people around you, including me.
just when i thought i can trust you,
you even mentioned us as free-loaders.
like you can always tell us straight in the face,
but once again think twice before you speak.
don't you think that your words are abit too harsh,
if there's anything unpleasant things that slipped out from my mouth,
which cause unhappiness, i am sincerely sorry from the bottom of my heart.
i regretted knowing about it, what a christmas.

don't lead the wrong idea,
you're confusing people.

BACK TO TRAINING.

2008-12-23T17:29:17Z

TRAINING RESUME,
we started off new, started off with 5km run.
twelve and a half rounds of track, easy jog.
30 OVER MINUTES!!! then continue with gym.
i don't know if it's me or what,
today back to the gym just feel very different.
maybe because we were used to last time,
but now, it's just different..nothing changed at all but it's just different.
overall training today is okay.
saw hak loon before training, very naturally i let out the widest smile!!
i think all of us miss him alot, how he always talk damn damn damn long after training.
and next time we are not going to reservoir so frequently,
chances of bumping into hak loon will be damn lowwwww.
and hak loon talked to wingyan earlier before training,
things that can just let us teared easily.
looking back at the photos during regatta,
brought back memories which we all kept deep down in the heart.

i still remember clearly how we wanted to take a picture with you.
because we know it's your last race with the girls.
which reminds us that you have been through 3 races with us,
how you brought the team up from nothing to what we are.
but we can't do anything to regain our past.
so what we can do now is to improve ourself, and don't disappoint anyone.
the past that we love.
the past that we miss.
the past that we treasure.

take time to realise.

2008-12-21T10:33:54Z

B-O-R-R-R-I-N-G-G.
i was looking at those past posts,
it was TOTALLY OMG, those stupid emo posts.
to read it again will be oh-so-not-cool.
I AM HAPPY WITH LIFE NOW!
and mel mention that everyone changed alot,
BUT WE CHANGED FOR THE BETTER:D
and i believe this upcoming christmas will be a good one,
because it's stayover at de's house(:
pity on tuesday, USUALS are clubbing and at the same time supporting van.
i can't go again, because i have training on tuesday.
i know clubbing at night lahhh, but who knows training end what time.
and who knows if training will be draining us all out. *which is very likely to*
anyway, have fun peeps!

a weakling.

2008-12-18T13:11:42Z

TRAINING STARTS NEXT WEEK!
ready to start everything new?
~~hopefully~~, can.
we are starting to fade.

that aside, i'm fine.
sometimes i think it's really tired to hate someone.
so let it be, to that someone out there.
i just want to say, i don't hate you but in the future you are on your own.

happen to saw this photo of ming and i.
so shiok to lay around, look at ming's leg.
s-k-i-n-n-y shit, compared to mine.
*colour contrast*

why bother then.

2008-12-17T15:18:30Z

why must you hurt the people around you,
does it send satisfactory to you?
i bother to blog about it because i still care about it,
i can just let it go and take you as a stranger.
your call today just to scold us "FUCK" and hung up,
how great, thanks for it man.
that's how you define friend, goodlucktoyou.

wetolerateyou,youdisappointus.

nasty approach.

2008-12-16T15:31:35Z

i think that you are gross,
because you hide your flaws with the great invention of technology.
and seriously, what's up with those "sense of secure".
BACK OFF, YOU BITCH!
try hard to figure out who it is,
but if you think that it is you then so be it.

-the nice people with high tolerance level-

BODY RIOT?!

2008-12-12T19:55:32Z

FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I FAINTED.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY FAINTED.
after my papers, went to see my skin doctor.
so i had to take a blood test,
and @&$*^@&*#&@@&*^#&*!@*&^#*!
the doctor couldn't find the vein properly,
and started to poke on my hand three times):
FUCKING PAINFUL OKAY!
then when i walked out from the room,
i told the counter auntie "auntie, i very dizzy"
and and and the next moment; when i opened my eyes
i am already lying flat on the floor,
the doctor and auntie shookkk me up like 'HELLOOO,WAKE UP!'
i got a shock of my life, the auntie told me that i pass out for around 1 minute?!?!
but now i am fine, just that had a big bump behind my head and i sprained my neck):
THANKS XIAOPEI FOR ACCOMPANYING ME HOME,
THANKS ALOT, appreciated(: !!
so at night went sinseh,
OMG, TOTALLY TWISTED MY NECK AND I HEARD A "TAK"
wow shiok, but aching pain.