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TIRED.

of everything, every single little thing.
i really felt that i had enough, broke down.

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NEW SEMESTER HAS STARTED, one last final semester :D
back to school seeing all those familiar faces was pure awesome!
and freehand drawing sounds cool.
hopefully the teacher figures out that i am drawing some building instead of rectangular blocks.
hahaha, we shall see how then. *everyone please pray hard for fer*
and now walking along concourse has different purpose for me, *hint hint mel*
haha, but seriously i am such a timid soul to even look at _
so contradicting, a part of me is like I WANT TO SEE _.
but another part of me is like OMG, BETTER DON'T SEE _, OR ELSE I WILL BLUSH LIKE MAD!!
AND I BLOODY HELL DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT!!!!!!
i guess i need to pluck out tons tons tons tons of courage to ask for number, oh gosh!!





for that moment, my heart was beating damn fast.
i use to think that she's just another one, but damn it.
she's different, i'm serious for ONCE.

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I AM GOING TO CURSE AND SWEAR PUBLIC-LY, AND YOU ARE NO FEAR TO ME.
AND I AM ABSOLUTELY NOT AFRAID THAT YOU ARE READING THIS.
the next time you open your fucking mouth and talked things behind my back,
think again because you seriously have to know that you are messing up with the wrong person.
for godness sake, know who you are dealing with.
you have your reasons to don't like me, i always joke with sarcasm..if you can't take it then too bad.
i can only say you are such a narrow-minded person, it's like "OHHH, I DIDN'T KNOW YOU CAN'T TAKE JOKES"
but come on..at least have the courage to come and talk things out with me face to face.
don't sneak behind my back and start all your effing nonsense thing and the next moment act as if things are normal.
you don't want me to be in the boat then tell me right in my face, no need to tell others how miserable and sad it is for you to row when i am there..you want your paddle and lifevest back?! i know you wouldn't want, beacuse you just need me to fill up the seats and fill up the number..and this is why i understand why i SIT at the back, you want me to feel neglect or what?!
but i am sorry that even though i am at the back, i get attention too..you want to play this kind of underhand thing,
BRING IT ON..because i can get bitchy too.
just take a look at your pathetic little brain, i wonder what it contains.
your thinking and your logic is totally the WORLD'S MOST NONSENSICAL THING ON EARTH.
and thanks for making me feeling like i am a worthless and unwanted THING, you succeeded.
and i didn't know my injury is just a nothing to you, i see that's your potential.
and i was really amazed how  i could break down with those words coming out from your mouth, i was hurt.
if you insist that you are damn perfect and flawless, GO AHEAD AND "IT'S ALL IN YOUR MIND".
one more thing, trying to act innocent won't buy you more sympathy..
you got me more pissed when i found out how controlling you are, how dare you treat her as if she's an asset of yours.
YOU DON'T OWN HER, YOU HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHTS TO DO THAT TO HER..AND I WON'T LET YOU AFFECT HER.
she don't need you to tell her what to do and who to mix around with, get a life man.
and try to think mature abit maybe that will make you a better person, because according to your thinking..being too close to a friend is like a DEATH SENTENCE AND SERIOUS OFFENCE, totally AMAZING!
i am not sorry at all for those vulgarities because you owned those.
last thing: BACK OFF.

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always be your pillar of support,
stands by you whenever and wherever,
shares all your joys and sorrows,
be the one who catch you when you fall,
and you might be an impossible to me.

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OKAY EVERYBODY, no more "HAPPY VESAK DAY!" :D
anyway 4th oct was out at marina square to celebrate sav and cal's burstdayyy!
andddddd it's been a longgggg time since we went singing together!
so KBOX was awesome (HAHAHA!)..spamming LADY GAGA & FIRE BURNING!!
chandra was totally turn off by lady gaga's MV (no offence to those GAGA's FAN-SI)
and 5th oct was out with the clique for photoshoot..totally had fun.
hopefully ming is happy with the surprise we planned (:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ANG MING FANG!!

great day with the great people :D





the BIGGEST mistake in my life is to make that choice.
since being in a same boat but making another miserable and sad.
i must as well be a spectator and let you be peaceful,
and i seriously welcome THRASH TALK, because if you are that unhappy then say that to my face.
bring it on.

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HAPPY VESAK DAY EVERYONE!!
had training in the morning, now there are freshies with us.
i don't know why, but i am very very happy to train with freshies around.
because they are a form of motivation to the team.
after training, went tampines food court to makan
and when we were about to go home, we randomly suggest to watch movie.
so in the end went to catch THE RAMEN GIRL.
hmm, thought it will be a nice movie but abit disappointing.
end around 7plus, so on my way home.
the bus ride was definitely an annoying one.
i was sitting down holding my paddle, then there is this uncle sitting opposite me.
i swear he was staring at me throughout my whole bus ride.
first he looked at my paddle then next moment he was looking at me from head to toe non-stop.
it's like i feel like shouting:
 "HELLO UNCLE, IT'S JUST A PADDLE OKAY...I AM NOT NOT NOT HOLDING A GUN OR WHATEVER,AND YES I AM NOT A TERRORIST, DEFINITELY NOT AN ALIEN..SO PLEASE STOP STARING AT ME!!!!!!!!"
seriously if you are curious or what, a few glare would be enough..i wouldn't take it to heart since we are used to it,
but staring throughout the bus ride is abit way too rude.
so anyway tomorrow is MOTHER'S DAY(:
will be out for a meal after training, woohoo!!


it's just another phase of my life,
once is enough.

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IF TIME CAN BE REWIND, I REALLY REALLY WISHED THAT I DIDN'T 
READ THAT CONVERSATION.
seriously wtf, what's the problem with you.
maybe blame me for not knowing how to handle such a person like you.
and i'm really glad that i had already kept a distance from you,
but still you are such a FUCKER!
 


 

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ONE WEEK OF SIP DOWN!!

WOOHOOOOO:D
anyway can't believe that everyday i actually reported for work on time.
it's like FER IS NEVER PUNCTUAL FOR MORNING LECTURES,  
but now have to clock in 8.30am, hahaha it's ironic.
had been modifying drink recipes for the whole week,
so that new drinks can be put up on the new menu.
TO MAKE IT SOUNDS NICE, OUR JOB IS MENU PLANNING AND KITCHEN WORK.
but to be exact WE ARE SAI KANG WARRIOR,
DISHWASH,CLEAN-UP,BLEND, WIPE,SWEEP, MOP,SANITIZE,COOK,SERVE...
everything we also BAO GA LIAO!!
next week BISTRO WALK CAFE starting business already,
definitely more busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
SIP-FOOD SAFETY PROJECT-APFS, good game fer.








hard to predict, hard to capture, hard to understand, hard to own.

I HAD TO SAY THAT TRAININGS WERE "OMG!"
one word to describe the sprinting sets: KILLER.
and the sun was scorching hot for the past two days.
that's why i am as RED as a LOBSTER!!
anyway sunday after training, went down to airport to send mel & de off.
quite an amount of people were there to send them off,
as if they were going for years, hahahaha.

haha, cannot even see our faces clearly.
some of them weren't there, or else it will be better.
anyway they will be back in june for two weeks break.
then we can have our BIG GATHERING, WOOHOOO!!

WE WILL MISS BOTH OF YOU.
after mel & de went in, everyone went on separate ways.
we went T3 to makan popeyes chicken and biscuits.
walked around and left.
lastly; goodbye HOLIDAYS, hello to SIP.





corrupted, sometimes i can't take it.
having it doesn't mean that you're always right.

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FER IS SICK):
anyway results are out, I PASSED EVERYTHINGGGG!!!
hahaha, but it's filled with Cs and Ds.
I AM EASILY CONTENTED, YES I DO.
results aside, missed training on tuesday because i was sick.
i guessed with my current condition, thursday i'm going to miss too.
DAMNN IT!! *frown*
and hopefully this holiday, we can spend more time with those going OSIP.
or else must wait for monthss to see them again.

knowing that it's impossible,
but why carry on?

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GYM TRAINING TOMORROW!!
the weights will be waving to me, and i will be staring at it.
have been facebook-ing for dayssss & nightsssss,
especially the GEO CHALLENGE, testing me on geography.
TOTALLY, GEOGRAPHY IS NOT MY THINGG LAHHHH.
haha, if ms koh have a facebook..she will be the top scorer!!
ohhh, anyway HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA ONG LI RONG.

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TRAINING RESUMED YESTERDAY!!
it was great to see everyone again after such a long perid of time.
stopped training for two weeks, and fitness deproved like mad.
running was damn tiring for me, rowing was damn struggling for me.
okay for this week, my middle name will be MGY (ONLY FOR THIS WEEK!!!)
hahaha, which means tmr i'm not..because it's a brand new week!
anyway i am aching everywhere, especially those conditioning exercises.
training intensity pumping up, let's pull through together!!
anyway HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JIAOSTER NGIENG & HAPPY TWO FRIEND!!
and to BRF, my muffin is definitely rotting at your house already.
haha i will go and redeem it soon.
 

SIDE NOTE: CONGRATS TO THOSE WHO WERE SELECTED FOR THE OSIP!
                       and good luck to michelle & eveleen, have fun speaking in mandarin(:

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HELLOOOOOOOO!!!
yes i know, you will be thinking "STUPID FER, FINALLY DECIDED TO POST"
hahaha, okay so this week we've ended our semester exams.
and right on the day which is wednesday, it was clubbing with click 12.
ST. JAMES POWER STATION TO CELEBRATE MR TIMOTHY CHUA YONG CONG'S BIRTHDAY!
it was a nice experience, the drinks were wooooolala.

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ON THE EVE'S EVE WAS OUT WITH USUALS!
met up with yol earlier to do some last minute shopping.
and i was damn fast and furious, got all my stuff within 1 hour plus.
after that went to meet others, and we set off to katong to have dinner & yusheng(:
full like mad, then over to tampines as they wanted to watch movie.
chrys and i made a move first while others enjoy the movie.
recently have been eating non stop, haha luckily training resume already.
or else i can't imagine the size keep growing horizontally.
and this year's new year was really a good start, i really enjoyed & love it.
anyway SUNDAY IS MASS BAI-NIAN WITH CLICK 12, it's going to be O.M.G.
i can't wait for that day to come, SO FUN!


someday,i'll make you mine.
 

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YOU SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE DEALING WITH!

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sometimes i really wished that i didn't know the truth.
i guessed you've been badmouthing about people around you, including me.
just when i thought i can trust you,
you even mentioned us as free-loaders.
like you can always tell us straight in the face,
but once again think twice before you speak.
don't you think that your words are abit too harsh,
if there's anything unpleasant things that slipped out from my mouth,
which cause unhappiness, i am sincerely sorry from the bottom of my heart.
i regretted knowing about it, what a christmas.
 

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TRAINING RESUME,
we started off new, started off with 5km run.
twelve and a half rounds of track, easy jog.
30 OVER MINUTES!!! then continue with gym.
i don't know if it's me or what,
today back to the gym just feel very different.
maybe because we were used to last time,
but now, it's just different..nothing changed at all but it's just different.
overall training today is okay.
saw hak loon before training, very naturally i let out the widest smile!!
i think all of us miss him alot, how he always talk damn damn damn long after training.
and next time we are not going to reservoir so frequently,
chances of bumping into hak loon will be damn lowwwww.
and hak loon talked to wingyan earlier before training,
things that can just let us teared easily.
looking back at the photos during regatta,
brought back memories which we all kept deep down in the heart.

i still remember clearly how we wanted to take a picture with you.
because we know it's your last race with the girls.
which reminds us that you have been through 3 races with us,
how you brought the team up from nothing to what we are.
but we can't do anything to regain our past.
so what we can do now is to improve ourself, and don't disappoint anyone.
the past that we love.
the past that we miss.
the past that we treasure.